Psychiatrist Appointment

I used to get this sensation that I was really heavy, I had my head pressed against a brick wall and a voice would repeat every thought I had. I've realised that being drunk is like that - except with less voices. 

I'm really scared. The doctor read out part of my writing and I kind of dissociated. How am I evergoing to manage talking about my feelings? But she was great, I think I might have finally found someone that I can learn to talk to, someone who can make me feel okay.