I can't breathe, I feel hot and sweaty. It won't stop. Do I want it to stop? Does it even count as panicking if I'm still hoping I'll die?
It seems to be happening more often. It used to just be when I was on my own, but now it happens when I'm around other people and that just makes it all worse because I'm scared they'll notice. I think it might be the smoking that's making it worse. If it is then it'll be ok on a couple of weeks because I'll have stopped completely.
I know I said I wasn't buying anymore cigarettes but I only lasted a couple of days. I'm not smoking anywhere near the amount I was though. And I promised in march I'd have stopped completely so 11 days to go. Wish me luck.
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